The Ringgold Ghost

Here is something I wrote and I will be doing a spoken word of soon.

Ringgold Street, West Hartford, CT

I had an exciting walk the other night. I took one of our dogs, Nugget, for a long, brisk walk around our little city neighborhood just past midnight. We walked down the street and cut through a little wooded area then went down through the park behind it. The illumination was high as the moon was near-full in the sky. Since we’ve been at our flat on Oakwood Street, we often scout the area on walks.

The park stretches into a large grassy area right past the little woods. The grass in the park rolls for a spell to the end of a cul-de-sac that ends at a street named Ringgold. On Ringgold there is a cemetery, I’ve walked by it few times now, mostly in the day, and a couple of times past sunset. I hadn’t made it down on one of my night patrols yet.

Ringgold is a quiet street. It starts three or four blocks up from the cul-de-sac at a T intersection at Park Road which connects the main areas of West Hartford and Hartford proper. Park Road is only busy during business hours. On one side of Ringgold starting at the T intersection is a small city bank, two or three blocks of a quiet condominium community, a small street leading to a neighborhood of mostly three-story multi-flat homes, then a few well-kept old homes with lovely lawns, then ends at the cul-de-sac attached to the large grassy park.

On the other side of Ringold, across the street from the bank is an older still well-kept home. Down much that side of Ringgold the rest of the land is fenced off, like it and the house are one property. It’s an odd tract of land in the populated eastern parts of West Hartford. The space is well maintained but still retains a sense of old to it, like it remembers wilder days before the encroachment of city and suburb. Most of the land is a seasonally dry watershed with overgrown trees near a center drainage basin, like an old creek.

Near the basin grows one of the most beautiful willow trees I’ve ever seen. A few days earlier I properly introduced my son to the willow on one of our walks. I haven’t met a Willow of note since my childhood, I was excited to show him how cool the shaggy trees can be. We snuck through an opening in the fenceline to see what it felt like under its thick canopy of wisps. It was worth a little trespassing, it was safe. We snuck in through a gap in the chainlink where the property belonging to the house’s fence stops and a different one surrounding the cemetery begins. In a fenced area about a block wide, lies an old, unmarked cemetery. Its gravestones face toward the watershed basin away from view from Ringgold Street.

The cemetery is closely manicured, just grass and gravestones. At the center of the formation of fifty or so white stone grave markers is a tall statue of a cross. The gate to enter the cemetery is locked up without away to easily sneak in without jumping the fence. In-between the cemetery on the cul-de-sac next to the park is a small, deeply overgrown tract of land, its trees and plants look defensive and unwelcoming. Next to that is the cul-de-sac, then the grass that flows up a tall hill into the park I like to stride.

Nugget was behaving in a way I appreciated. He was alert but not overly curious, just the way I like my little patrols to go. With Dax, our older pup, I used to be able to walk around with him off the leash. We were a team and we acted as extensions of that team. I felt like Nugget and I were moving as a team, like we were using each other’s senses to detect and respond to the night around us. He’s a good pup. When we’re in tune, he’s a lot of fun to get to be around.

We moved through the park onto the cul-de-sac. I like to stay on the side with the cemetery. There isn’t a sidewalk on that side but I like to be off on my own. Doesn’t hurt that the dogs can get a good sniff of interesting things and they don’t piss on pretty landscaping.

The cemetery seemed still even though the nighttime critters were all a holler on the humid August air. All the stone was vibrant white under the Moon’s clear shine, contrasted by the dark lush green on midnight grass. The night blasted a beautiful chaotic harmony of sound. The cemetery always seems quiet, but that night it was the embodiment of stillness. It was nice. Sound all around it but its solitude was like a wall against the night’s noise. Sounds seemed to spill over it from the woods in the watershed basin behind it.

The pup and I began to transition from the fence line that separated the cemetery from the lawn that my kid and I snuck through. We heard gentil footsteps behind us on the other side of the fence. The steps sounded like they were walking on top of the dew saturated grass and walked right through the fence that separated the lawn from the cemetery. The grass didn’t move, but Nuggets ears were tall and probing the night like radar dishes that found an incoming craft. His pointed nose caught as much sense as my eyes.

With nothing there and the night becoming louder, we moved past the cemetery farther down Ringgold toward the bank, the old house, and the busier road. I did what I always do when confronted with nighttime creepies; I took a deep breath, chest out, shoulders square, I kept my senses alert, and I briskly walked to a place I had more control over. We moved down the way across the street toward a brightened area under a yellowed streetlight. The footsteps matched our pace and continued behind us. Nugget’s head was on a swivel but carried on with our walk without a pull.

Moving forward I’d lost track of the feeling of those steps behind me. We continued to walk until we got under the streetlight. I brought a joint with me. I lit it up, took a deep drag, and took a nice long look around. Nugget took a shit in a little bit grass on the further edge of the cast light from above. I bagged Nuggets business up for disposal and we made our way back home, down Park Road and back toward Oakwood Street.

Weird feeling man. As creepy as the experience was, when I no longer heard the steps, I immediately missed them. I longed for the anticipation I felt in my bones caused by that weird moment in an otherwise normal experience.  Existential realization momentarily manifested and disappeared with the footfalls of ghosts. Real or imagined but rawly felt, none the less. Night creepies can make a normal walk feel exciting. I bet New England is super creepy in the winter. I look forward to experiencing it someday.

Addendum.

My Mom and Aunt Mary came to stay with us. I told them about the Ringgold experience. My Aunt told me she “bet dollars to doughnuts” that the cemetery was part of an old church. Sure, enough I added new search parameters to my investigation, and it is the cemetery for a convent that has been recently sold and renovated into apartment housing. I should’ve remembered my history training instead of relying on google-fu.

Lessons:

Be bold, be brave, have a plan for escape.

Take your camera and use it. The pictures you take are yours and not copyrighted by someone else.

Trust your training (experience) and try to apply it where ever you can.

Links:

Article about the nunnery becoming apartments.

https://www.ctpublic.org/news/2023-10-25/hundreds-of-west-hartford-apartments-open-on-nunnery-grounds

The order of nuns who use to run the site. They seem like cool people, the Sisters of the Neighborhood, trying to help people where they are.

https://catholicarchives.ie/index.php/sisters-of-saint-joseph-chambery

Corner of Ringold and Park, go south on Ringgold to Tract 40 that is the cemetery. Don’t forget to use digitized public records.

SMG Nomadication #1

6/1/25 – 6/30/25

  1. Prelude, May 2025
  2. Cedar Hill Farm
  3. Alaska
  4. Bouncing Around Texas
  5. M&G Road Trip, TX – PA

1. Prelude, May 2025

May was crazy. As we were attempting to sell our house, we moved everything we owned from the 2-bedroom apartment we were renting into a storage unit, three large foot lockers, 3 small foot lockers, four suitcases, and a truck. I graduated with my master’s degree in public history. I got to take part in the tradition of jumping in the San Marcos River in my graduation gown![1] Garrison mastered both of his STAAR tests for the fourth grade, “A – B Honor Roll” for the entire year I might add. Summer killed it at her job and received Quarter 1&2 2025 Dobbs House MVP for her stellar service to the family and outstanding achievements as #1 team player. The old dog Dax wins “Best Boy” for being so chill with all the moving his whole life. The young dog Nugget received “Needs Improvement” only because he’s still an anxious pup and needs to chill.

2. Cedar Hill Farm

We moved to my in-laws Paul and Lisa farm, named Cedar Hill Farm, out near New Ulm in beautiful Colorado County as we got ready for the big trip. I began to implement my secret plan to understand and participate as a better community member. I learned a lot about the 5Ws of community and have developed my own theories about the concept working through grad school and well, just being a community member whether I liked it or not, whether I was good at it or not, or whether I even realized it or not. Summer received the Starlink she had ordered and began to navigate the complexities of working from the road. I employed my son as a research assistant. He has been such an incredible teammate and research assistant. My dude is a blast, and we are lucky to get to be his parents. His work on the flora and fauna on the farm will be invaluable, I am sure.

Paul and Lisa were great. Lisa’s sour dough bread is insane. The farm looked amazing, and I was grateful to Paul for showing me how to use some of the equipment and I had a blast doing some farm work. The work was invigorating. We popped over to Houston and got to see G’s cousin Blakley perform in another great theatre production. I am posing a short write up of a San Felipe, TX trip I did in a different post on my blog.

3. Alaska

We went on a cruise to Alaska. It was beautiful and inspiring, I can’t recommend it enough. I am posting a couple of things separate from this newsletter from that trip on my blog. It started in Seattle and maneuvered through the archipelagoes that are abundant on that part of Earth. We were excited to take part in a bunch of excursions. In Skagway we hiked a bit of the Chilkoot Trail through an old growth forest and rafted down the Taiya River. Another day we disembarked from the cruise ship onto a smaller craft in Holkham Bay and boated up the Endicott Arm to experience its glacier. It was awesome to see the reality of climatological change as you go deeper into the fjord arm closer to the glacier. In the bay proper, the trees are tall, the world green and wet. As you delve deeper, the walls of the fjord are increasingly scraped clean of vegetation. When you get close to the glacier, the stone of the walls are bare, the air cool, and the sound vibrating as you hold your breath to hear the creaking from the blue and white wall of ice. It was life changing and I want to be a better human because of the experience.

In Ketchikan we visited the Tongass National Forest HQ, which contains a magical museum. In Juneau we encountered a charming town, and the most incredible sightseeing adventure of my life. We saw, helped identify, and heard a group of seven humpback whales feeding in a group. Our guide explained the balance of the ecosystem that allows the humpbacks to feed and continued to come back to that part of the world time and time again.

4. Bouncing Around Texas

Plans that had been laid out to get our family truck outfitted met logistical issues, so we wound up popping around Texas more than anticipated and left later than planned but it all worked out. We visited our friends Billy and Amy and their two great pups. Our dogs, Dax and Nugget made some new dog friends. We got a nice visit with my mom in Malakoff and even got to see some of my side of the family before we hit the road. Back to San Marcos to get the truck outfitted with parts that had finally arrived. Back to Cedar Hill Farm for a night and final load up and out in the morning!

5. M&G Road Trip, TX – PA

Summer had a business trip and unfortunately missed the fun part of the road trip from Texas to Pennsylvania. G, the dogs, and I loaded up and headed out. The goal was to spend two or three nights on the road, we did it in two. G and I coordinated to note what he wanted to see so I wasn’t just forcing him into museum after museum. He wanted game stores, comic bookstores, and sandwich stops included in our journey. He has been leaving google reviews for the places we stop. The trip itself was fun, the stretch of land through Arkansas and Tennessee I’d seen blast by my window a few times, but the views through Kentucky, West Virginia, and the Panhandle of Maryland were as new to me as they were to Garrison. I sure love the way Appalachia looks, especially flying down the highway at 75. We pulled into our spot in Somerset County Pennsylvania, in between the little town of Meyersdale and the smaller town of Berlin. The stretches of cultivated fields interspersed with heavily treed small Appalachian Mountains, called the Allegheny’s, capped by massive wind farms was the breath of fresh air we were all looking for and didn’t even know it.


[1] I also got to knock out that big one off my bucket list. My goal of graduating from TX State goes back to when I first moved down there after I got out of the Army. I tried to go using my G.I. Bill benefits but flunked out as I had no idea what I was doing and had yet to learn to embrace my past as a high school dropout.

Ixchel and Cruise Ships

Fading Hand Prints

My wife and I got back from our first cruise awhile back. We were on the boat for four days, it was a neat experience but the best part of the trip was when we went and saw the ruins of a Mayan holy site on the island of Cozumel. We could see the ancient fading paint still adorning the wall in the building behind the high priests sarcophagus. My wife said, “Do you see the hand prints?” I did, the color was a reddish brown and around it were blotches of reds, browns, yellows, and blues. The guide said it was the remnants of a mural of the goddess of fertility Ixchel, he then pulled from his pocket a handkerchief sized weaving of her representation and told us that’s what was on that wall.

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We continued the tour and we were shown the ancient, now nearly rubble, road that lead from the coast miles away to this temple complex. People would use that road while making pilgrimage to the site . We could see the stone road into the distance, people had cleared the surrounding jungle from around the site and the road. The road was torn up, as you can imagine it would be after centuries of non-use, except where the entrance to the complex over the road still stands, there the road was in nearly perfect condition.

Seeing the paint and the hand print on the wall, the road where untold numbers treaded, to pay homage to a god, and to seek her blessing; these thoughts entranced me, entrance me still. The tour guide said that they who came to seek the blessing of Ixchel must be put to the test “as the people in the military are put to the test to prove themselves.” I wish I had noted what the tests were but thinking about it I remember think they sounded grueling and simulating death. The whole experience was amazing.

The cruise ship reminded me of the Tropicana Casino in Vegas. Not the nicest of joints and getting a little older, but there to get the party done. Just don’t look to closely at the grime and you will have a fine time. That should be Carnival Cruise Line’s advertisement.

Here’s something I wrote on the boat:

 

Cruise Prose – from ‘Malakoff Notebook #3’

I’ve feared the sea,

I still do but now I call

the fear respect.

The massive majesty

 

of expansive viscous

motion beacons me to

consider the souls

that’ve crashed its currents.

 

Looking into the depths

is remembering the insignificance

of one life as an itty-bitty drop

in the wider sea of humanity.

 

The fluidity of the currents

tosses my mind to places

of the sea’s desire, I am a slave

to the pull of its graces.

 

For the first time in my life I can’t see land.